Parenting is tough.
The past few weeks have been taxing on me in terms of mental and emotional decisions regarding being a mom/parent. I know my kids are just toddlers, but in my own little convoluted mind, every choice or decision that I make for them now is directly impacting how their adult lives are going to be…….. I know this isn’t really the case, but for right now, that’s how I see it.
Anyways- for those who don’t know: I’ve got an older son (4) and a younger daughter (turning 3 next week). I, personally, grew up as a tough little girl who was always quite the tomboy. When I found out I was pregnant with Aiden, A BOY, I was elated because I never really knew how I would be as a mom to a girl. Aiden was a super easy baby. An amazing baby—- Hence, trying for another one just months after having the first!! When we found out we were having a girl, we were scared. Scared to death. I was never really a girly type of girl (still not!). My husband had a sister of his own, but he’s Mr. Football coach and honestly, at that point in time, a girl was scaryyyyyy. And you know what? She was hell on wheels as an infant. Colic, Acid Reflux, CRYING, CRYING, CRYING.
But here we are. I’ve got these two. I’ve got a tough as nails younger sister…. and an amazingly smart, loving, caring, kind, and sensitive little boy, who is slowing turning in to a big boy. A boy who knows wayyyyy too much for his own good. Aiden is the kid who hears things from 2 rooms away and is aware of adult conversations when he should be worrying about legos etc. Aiden seems to be advanced in terms of his academics (reading and writing), but has a hard time emotionally and socially acting his age. I used to think the girl was scary, but now I’m pretty much freaking out over being a mom to this little boy.
Being a boy/man is tough. You are supposed to be strong, but not aggressive. Aggressive in sports, but not violent. Confident, but humble. Able to stand your ground, but not a bully. Polite, but not a pushover. Smart, but not a nerd. Ugh. Seriously? How do I do this.
I’ve really got no point to this post, other than the need to get these thoughts out there…. if you’ve made it this far, thanks for sticking with me. If you’ve got ideas/tips/pointers, send them my way. OH— and the picture above is of my sweet Aiden tonight. He earned his 3rd stripe in karate and was so proud of himself. Gosh darn, I love that kid.