#transformationtuesday I was voted most athletic my senior year in 2002. Though I played 3 Varsity sports almost all 4 years, the effects of various eating disorders had my metabolism so destroyed that I couldn’t shed fat to save my life. I was probably one of the most unhealthy college-recruited athletes out there. Shortly after the left pic was taken, I restricted down to a deathly low weight and continued to yo-yo back and forth until I found weight training ~18 months ago. The right pic was taken last month… school pictures 2014. Eating real food/6-8 meals per day/ exercising 60-75 minutes per day with mostly weights and very little cardio.
The body is crazy. You can’t expect peak performance if you are starving, binging, purging, or doing cardio like an animal. I’ve learned to love what I eat. I value the fuel and energy that it provides. Exercise is a lifestyle, not a punishment. #EDrecovery #everydayisastruggle #alwaysfightback
I think I forgot what 39 degrees feels like….and I just saw my first fully lit Christmas tree. Ok, maryland, you win.
Those voices, the demons, those obsessive thoughts. The things that derail you from your goals and make you nothing. Yes, I fight them daily. Woke up feeling like I couldn’t fight back. But I hit the weights and was literally relieved, if only for just 60 minutes. #alwaysfightback
At least 10 times a month I put on clothes that are completely inside out and wear them in public. Today was one of those days….
But I still destroyed the wheels.
Matt and I are traveling sans children for a wedding…. our first same-sex wedding at that!
So far, I’ve changed the radio 350 times, made him stop on the side of the road so I can pee in the grass, and popped open a container of cabbage/ chicken/ rice/ hot sauce. I’m the worst passenger everrrrrr.
These past few days, I’ve had a really hard time controlling my anger. If my traps and shoulders weren’t hurting, I know I would’ve punched a wall already. I’m pretty emotionally spent and really hoping to re-charge over the next few days.
Self-promotion Sunday… Because all of my clients made massive improvements this past week… and a lot of you have been messaging me about my services.
Don’t be a stranger— I’ll answer any questions you have and I’d love to have more of you join my team!
I am very tired.
I am feeling anxious.
I am better than yesterday.
I am forever more striated on the left side of my body.
I know i’ve been totally MIA…again… but this time I’ve got a good excuse. The little one turns 4 on Tuesday, so yesterday, we had her party at our house. With the help of family, friends, and allgutsnotglory I’d say the “Frozen” wonderland was a success.
Eating breakfast without 30 twelve year olds staring at you.
Using real dishes instead of plastic ones.
The food is actually hot and not just pulled out of the fridge.
Yes, it’s the little things that matter when you have a day off!
It’s the Monday after a weekend that didn’t feel like a weekend… Ugh. Too much working and stressing…not enough resting.
But- in general, things are positive. At least that’s what I’m telling myself.
I just left a sobbing 3 year old at school and I’m late for a 7:30 meeting…. And it’s picture day.
Am I even professional?
Those who are new to my blog, don’t know too much about my eating disorder past. But I’ve come a long way from the endless hours of cardio, starving, binging and purging, etc…
I hate the word “bulk” because of the connotation that comes behind it. But this off season, I’ve been committed to put on CLEAN mass in hopes of bringing a better package to the stage.
Today officially marks a 10 POUND weight gain- top pic was taken the morning of my show, June 28… And then today.
With a lot of pain in my upper body and the need for more recovery days b/w workouts, I’m finding time to focus on my legs this off season. While I know I’m lacking in my arms and shoulders, I can’t just push through injuries.
I’m competitive. I hate when things aren’t just how I want them to be. I HATE BEING INJURED. BUT- I can guarantee, NO ONE will beat my legs next competition season.
In our school district, today is the deadline in which any 7th grade student who is not up to date with their vaccinations will be sent home from school and not able to return until immunizations are complete.
I’ve already had 2 kids leave my first period class….. Seriously parents? Get with the program.