Where the Clever Things Are

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#transformationtuesday I was voted most athletic my senior year in 2002. Though I played 3 Varsity sports almost all 4 years, the effects of various eating disorders had my metabolism so destroyed that I couldn’t shed fat to save my life. I was probably one of the most unhealthy college-recruited athletes out there. Shortly after the left pic was taken, I restricted down to a deathly low weight and continued to yo-yo back and forth until I found weight training ~18 months ago. The right pic was taken last month… school pictures 2014. Eating real food/6-8 meals per day/ exercising 60-75 minutes per day with mostly weights and very little cardio. 
The body is crazy. You can’t expect peak performance if you are starving, binging, purging, or doing cardio like an animal. I’ve learned to love what I eat. I value the fuel and energy that it provides. Exercise is a lifestyle, not a punishment. #EDrecovery #everydayisastruggle #alwaysfightback

#transformationtuesday I was voted most athletic my senior year in 2002. Though I played 3 Varsity sports almost all 4 years, the effects of various eating disorders had my metabolism so destroyed that I couldn’t shed fat to save my life. I was probably one of the most unhealthy college-recruited athletes out there. Shortly after the left pic was taken, I restricted down to a deathly low weight and continued to yo-yo back and forth until I found weight training ~18 months ago. The right pic was taken last month… school pictures 2014. Eating real food/6-8 meals per day/ exercising 60-75 minutes per day with mostly weights and very little cardio.
The body is crazy. You can’t expect peak performance if you are starving, binging, purging, or doing cardio like an animal. I’ve learned to love what I eat. I value the fuel and energy that it provides. Exercise is a lifestyle, not a punishment. #EDrecovery #everydayisastruggle #alwaysfightback

Filed under transformationtuesday edrecovery everydayisastruggle alwaysfightback

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I think I forgot what 39 degrees feels like….and I just saw my first fully lit Christmas tree. Ok, maryland, you win.

I think I forgot what 39 degrees feels like….and I just saw my first fully lit Christmas tree. Ok, maryland, you win.

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Those voices, the demons, those obsessive thoughts. The things that derail you from your goals and make you nothing. Yes, I fight them daily. Woke up feeling like I couldn’t fight back. But I hit the weights and was literally relieved, if only for just 60 minutes. #alwaysfightback

Those voices, the demons, those obsessive thoughts. The things that derail you from your goals and make you nothing. Yes, I fight them daily. Woke up feeling like I couldn’t fight back. But I hit the weights and was literally relieved, if only for just 60 minutes. #alwaysfightback

Filed under alwaysfightback

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These past few days, I’ve had a really hard time controlling my anger. If my traps and shoulders weren’t hurting, I know I would’ve punched a wall already. I’m pretty emotionally spent and really hoping to re-charge over the next few days.

These past few days, I’ve had a really hard time controlling my anger. If my traps and shoulders weren’t hurting, I know I would’ve punched a wall already. I’m pretty emotionally spent and really hoping to re-charge over the next few days.

Filed under no roids just rage

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Clever Strength- Nutrition and Training

Self-promotion Sunday… Because all of my clients made massive improvements this past week… and a lot of you have been messaging me about my services.

Don’t be a stranger— I’ll answer any questions you have and I’d love to have more of you join my team!

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"I" statements:

I am very tired. 
I am feeling anxious. 
I am better than yesterday. 
I am forever more striated on the left side of my body.

"I" statements:

I am very tired.
I am feeling anxious.
I am better than yesterday.
I am forever more striated on the left side of my body.

Filed under brain dump

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Eating breakfast without 30 twelve year olds staring at you.
Using real dishes instead of plastic ones.  
The food is actually hot and not just pulled out of the fridge. 

Yes, it’s the little things that matter when you have a day off!

Eating breakfast without 30 twelve year olds staring at you.
Using real dishes instead of plastic ones.
The food is actually hot and not just pulled out of the fridge.

Yes, it’s the little things that matter when you have a day off!

Filed under competitor life

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It’s the Monday after a weekend that didn’t feel like a weekend… Ugh. Too much working and stressing…not enough resting. 
But- in general, things are positive. At least that’s what I’m telling myself. 

I just left a sobbing 3 year old at school and I’m late for a 7:30 meeting…. And it’s picture day. 
Am I even professional?

It’s the Monday after a weekend that didn’t feel like a weekend… Ugh. Too much working and stressing…not enough resting.
But- in general, things are positive. At least that’s what I’m telling myself.

I just left a sobbing 3 year old at school and I’m late for a 7:30 meeting…. And it’s picture day.
Am I even professional?

Filed under that work grind

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Those who are new to my blog, don’t know too much about my eating disorder past. But I’ve come a long way from the endless hours of cardio, starving, binging and purging, etc…

I hate the word “bulk” because of the connotation that comes behind it. But this off season, I’ve been committed to put on CLEAN mass in hopes of bringing a better package to the stage. 

Today officially marks a 10 POUND weight gain- top pic was taken the morning of my show, June 28… And then today.

Those who are new to my blog, don’t know too much about my eating disorder past. But I’ve come a long way from the endless hours of cardio, starving, binging and purging, etc…

I hate the word “bulk” because of the connotation that comes behind it.

But this off season, I’ve been committed to put on CLEAN mass in hopes of bringing a better package to the stage. Today officially marks a 10 POUND weight gain- top pic was taken the morning of my show, June 28… And then today.

Filed under progress is progress clean bulk off season gains

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With a lot of pain in my upper body and  the need for more recovery days b/w workouts, I’m finding time to focus on my legs this off season. While I know I’m lacking in my arms and shoulders, I can’t just push through injuries.

I’m competitive. I hate when things aren’t just how I want them to be. I HATE BEING INJURED. BUT- I can guarantee, NO ONE will beat my legs next competition season.

With a lot of pain in my upper body and the need for more recovery days b/w workouts, I’m finding time to focus on my legs this off season. While I know I’m lacking in my arms and shoulders, I can’t just push through injuries.

I’m competitive. I hate when things aren’t just how I want them to be. I HATE BEING INJURED. BUT- I can guarantee, NO ONE will beat my legs next competition season.

Filed under progress I suppose frustrated never settle

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Come on man…

In our school district, today is the deadline in which any 7th grade student who is not up to date with their vaccinations will be sent home from school and not able to return until immunizations are complete.

I’ve already had 2 kids leave my first period class….. Seriously parents? Get with the program.

Filed under sorry not sorry I don't want your diseases